How I feel in a Master program
Ok, I had a crazy idea to become a master student, now that I am mature enough to blame myself for my choice!
So, I am in Sweden (P E R F E C T), trying to study, trying to see the positive side of knowledge, trying to learn as much as possible so I can implement my knowledge later.
And now, I have to admit that every day, instead of feeling cleverer , or at least, feeling that I learn more and more, I feel stupider day by day. Because there is a point that you realise you have forgotten how it is to study, to be taught and not teach, and of course, you have forgotten to ask your brain if it agrees with your choice to start the studying procedure again. And yes, I thought I am average stupid. I had this hint before. After the 6σ lectures, I am convinced that I am stupid, more than average. And that is knowledge. Now I KNOW. I cannot do this. I tried, I am failing, I am quitting.
Next time someone asks me what I learnt from my studies here in Sweden, this is what I will answer:
I fully understood that my capabilities and brain capacity is less than I thought. Or less than the rest. Or ... there is no brain to measure the capacity. Pffff. What can a girl do? Pole dance maybe... F'ck engineering!
So, I am in Sweden (P E R F E C T), trying to study, trying to see the positive side of knowledge, trying to learn as much as possible so I can implement my knowledge later.
And now, I have to admit that every day, instead of feeling cleverer , or at least, feeling that I learn more and more, I feel stupider day by day. Because there is a point that you realise you have forgotten how it is to study, to be taught and not teach, and of course, you have forgotten to ask your brain if it agrees with your choice to start the studying procedure again. And yes, I thought I am average stupid. I had this hint before. After the 6σ lectures, I am convinced that I am stupid, more than average. And that is knowledge. Now I KNOW. I cannot do this. I tried, I am failing, I am quitting.
Next time someone asks me what I learnt from my studies here in Sweden, this is what I will answer:
I fully understood that my capabilities and brain capacity is less than I thought. Or less than the rest. Or ... there is no brain to measure the capacity. Pffff. What can a girl do? Pole dance maybe... F'ck engineering!
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