Voices

I have been trying all this time to listen to all these voices in my head about what is right and what is wrong, what is moral and what is unethical, what is expected and what is not, what gives the good impressions and what disgraces you. 

All these voices in my head are killing me. All these voices. 

All this internal fighting about trying very hard to do right and pushing your feelings to an eternal sleep in case they do not fit the circumstances.

All these must and mustn't. All these dos and don'ts. All these voices. 

And I forgot to listen to mine...

How can you listen with all the noise? 

People tell you how you should act, culture tells you how you should act, family tells you how you should act. 

I kept few people that I want to listen to. I changed country and cultural rules. I have no parents to follow the family's suggestions. Why the hell do I still have these voices? 

I try and try and try. And when I don't try, just for a moment, the universe is against me. The spotlight will reveal my lack of effort. Just for that moment. 

I forgot to listen to my voice. Please, be quiet.